December 2008
Traveling Notes, December 23
Listening to mates of state. About to go over the golden gate bridge. There is no toll, cool! Not too golden, more like a copper or burnt orange. Haha… Seriously this note should be about the ghost town we stopped to explore back in Arizona… Or was it Utah? no Nevada. No wait I think it was California. Neither here nor there I guess. There were tumbleweeds and old wrecked buildings...
Traveling Notes, December 22
Annoyed becuz I just wrote a whole thing and lost it becuz my stupid blackberry decided to freeze. So this is going to be shorter and less articulate … Ugh! Ok so listening to Angels and Airwaves right now. Don’t hate guys, for some reason my dude friends usually hate this band, but sometimes they’re pretty perfect in my opinion, raspecially the song I’m listening to now,...
Traveling Notes, December 21
Utah is snowwy… We just crossed from Wyoming into Utah and its kind of an amazing landscape out here. We stopped at this travel center and I was in the bathroom washing my face when this lady walked in with like 5 little girls. She really had her hands full, and they were all so cute, helping each other with their little snow boots on. I was like dang that’s alotta kids. Then as...
Traveling Notes, December 19
Was gonna wait at least 24 hours befor my 2nd post, but I had to get down what just went down. First found ourselves outside of Ontario somehow but I don’t have my passport on me so we turned around.. Headed right into the core of this huge crazy gigantic snow storm that’s like taking over the north east.. So we’re sliding all over the road, need to get off the road. Stop in this...
Traveling Notes, The Beginning of The Series
Startingg off to a stellar, a plus soundtrack. Driving in the dark, I think there’s snow on the side of the highway but idk. Listening to Maps right now, perfect. Somewhere in new York state, feeling all sorts of amazing feelings and thinking empty yet perfect thoughts. Writing this here because its top dark to use my journal and I want to keep my friends informed, even if they don’t...
Tom’s Twelve Laws of Life at Connecting With... →
THANKS DAVE PINKE. YOU’RE A WINNER. THIS IS WHERE IT’S AT.
an excerpt
me: it sprung from all the shit-ass messages i've been getting from -- lately.
basically this guy who i truly believed and loved with my entire being and existence, to be my husband and baby daddy. . . has had enough of our emotional roller coaster, the distance and experience with other people during our "time apart" has really torn us apart, him at the core. i always had this little notion or seed of hope that we would get through this shakey like teen/early twenties time of self exploration and path-paving, and get through to the other side and end up together in love forever.
but, he's expressed that my having sex with other dudes has caused irreversable damage and he's past it, and for me to not bother trying to get through. and that the next time we see each other he hopes it will be as totally unique individuals almost like meeting for the first time.
i think that's impossible.
after further consideration: i should have been done with it a long time ago, too, i guess. i think i acted like i was... hmm.
“Hello, music school. You make me work so hard.”
– a resourceful and studying me.
listening to "Sister Winter - Sufjan Stevens" →
mmmm.
“all your days are numbered”
– a filled mind with endless hot pursuits
listening to "Human - The Killers" →
sometimes i get nervous when i see an open door. close your eyes. clear your heart. cut the cord.
listening to "Reading in Bed - Emily Haines →
if you’re luck’s so good, why are your songs so sad?
listening to "Makin Love - Soft Tigers" →
we’re makin love tonight… in our parent’s bed…
listening to "Tiger Said Knock You Out - Neon... →
This is the phat beat that i’ve been looking for in my life. anything could be laid over this and it’d be bumping.
Amazing test for the Watford Copywriter/Art...
davepinke:
So recently, a friend of mine from the UK sent me this test that she has to take as part of her application for a graduate course. The person who created it has the best job ever, its mental!
Please respond to the following:
1 I love my cat. Make me want to eat it. 2 List or visualise as many uses for a piece of chewed chewing gum. 3 Devise a campaign strategy with executions to...
I don’t think life is entirly about walking around in your own bubble of happiness, and then finding someone to share that happiness. Call me crazy but in my experience we have good times and bad. There is a delicate balance of sunshine and rain, and we help each other through the hard stuff. We lean on and learn from each other. If I’m feeling down and you come at me with this idea...
“i call myself an island and luckily i find that you are the sea around me.”
– james taylor
i wasn't sure
i wasn’t sure if i would have enough energy to write tonight after today. today was one of the most awesome, most productive days ever, ad yet still, because i am me, and i am here, living, now, i drop low. i can’t get off the roller coaster. i can’t stop thinking about the beginning, the end, the love lost, the love to be found, the only love to be known. i don’t know, i...
Mates Of State - You Are Free
http://www.everythingistotallypossible.org/thoughts... →
creative minds of GENERICA
“That’s all I’m really interested in— love. And the lack of it....”
– Jennifer Sullivan
the day i didn't let myself get unmotivated and...
something about love
to do this love thing, all you need to do is let go. there’s this psychic connection that love brings and if you let go you can tap into it and you’ll know everything there is to know. something about love transcends everything, love is all you need. something about if you give a little love, you can get a little love of your own. something about all the love in the world is yours to...
listening to "Lower You Eyelids To Die With The... →
britney spears, for the record. epic life, epic song.
oh my lonely diamond heart, it misses you so well....
“In our cages we wait patiently for things we’ve never seen, but need. and we...”
– a choking and laughing me…
listening to "Playground Hustle - The Dø" →
we are not afraid of you adults! we’ll go talk to the king of this kingdom if you don’t let us play with dolls! AH!
“it’s tragedy that we can float along and feel the numbness of invisibility...”
– open every door around me. use the skeleton key
Lost At E Minor (Click Me and Be Amused) →
all kinds of people, places, and things.
why it's okay to feel things
so, there is one good thing going on right now, that inspires me. well there are plenty of little things that do, here and there, but usually there are equally uninspiring happens that distract me. but there is one good thing going on. and it’s temporary, but that’s probably part of it. because nothing gold can stay, and as humans, we prefer it this way (it seems).
so here it is....
fucking a
fuck, i left my guitar at school. i don’t know if i’ll ever see it again.
in other news,
fuck, there is no other news.
gone is another day
I wake up every night at around 10pm. I put on my clothes and fake glasses and get ready for another big night at the office, where I make my art, and think my thoughts. All day long with the rest of the world I wander in and out in a dream state and at 10pm every night I have my coffee and begin my real work. I am addicted to the night and dark hours and nothing else matters except for my alone...
everything that happened in the last 24 hours
i am really actually too tired to write, and my cozy bed is not approving of my laptop’s bright light, or cord, or my focus on it right now. i should be cozying up, turning this thing off, and loving me some pillow time. but i’m half way there so i give myself permission to write some. my relationship with school and it’s people and projects is improving. i don’t know...
As a charity...
We have to find a way to make our way in the world… Things are different; they’re fluid, shifting now. You have to keep the path back to the well. Keep some part of your art pure for yourself so that it continues to be that singular and alternative thing that made you start to go for it in the first place. Don’t trade in your passion! In regards to making records, when do you...
Many creative people fill their heads during the summer. Winters are more for sitting down at your table, taking those things you gathered in your mind during the summer, and making something from them.
Be aware my darling…
“Sometimes I go whole days
listening bored, half sleep
I won’t say...”
– School Of Seven Bells
A new day
Apparently every single day is new. Why can’t I have that kind of consistency? Hmm… Maybe I do?